Daydreams strike again.
Just because I’m apathetic does not mean I hate them. I’d just rather not think about them or see them. I don’t care what they do…as long as it doesn’t hurt others in the process.
Love and respect.
People always say that dreams mean something…that it’s some kind of window into your soul of desire and what not.
But…I honestly hope that isn’t true with the way I’ve been dreaming lately. Maybe it’s the hot korean boy groups or the dramas I watched several months ago still playing in my head, but I keep setting these high standards for myself. I need help. Life isn’t like that. Life is just life. I just need to let it happen, right?
So, Christina…stop dreaming crazy, creepy, weird things, okay? Okay. Good.
So, I think I have a problem.
I talk to myself alot….ALOT. Well not outright talking, but thinking to myself in my mind…
At least I don’t refer to myself in the third person…well not that much. Sometimes…occasionally.
I like to think out random scenarios of a more interesting version of my life in which I am the heroine, some kind of kickass woman with a strong sense of self and conviction. Maybe I’ll actually become her one day. Until then, I guess I’ll just have to settle for my simple little daydreams…
They are entertaining I guess, though it prevents me on focusing from the task at hand. Sometimes, I prefer them to real life, but I think that’s true with most day dreams…hence them being dreams.
Well…I haven’t been on here in so long. So many things have changed but not…I don’t know how to describe what I’m feeling. I don’t feel anxious about graduating soon…maybe it’ll hit me after I finish chinese IB testing on friday.
It makes me sad that I’m leaving something I’ve known for four years…something so comfortable and safe. I guess everyone has to do it, but it makes me a bit nervous. Life is so unpredictable and I have no control over what is going to happen…
We’ll see…I know I’m going to miss so many people. I love you all and will never forget what amazing friends I have made.